when down in the dumps!

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
though this is the lyrics of katy perry - firework, but this exactly states how i feel!
sometimes when i am right down in the dumps i really feel as if am caged in a bottle, from where i can see the whole world but none can see me through!
i am shouting and screaming but no one can hear me!
its so suffocating but then if i just look behind i can see my room, my friends, my parents and everything that comprise my world and i know this is where i belong!

first rain of the season

i am sitting here in the boring room
its just another rainy monday* afternoon
i am wasting my time
i got nothing to do
i am hanging around
i am waiting for you
but nothing ever happens and i wonder!


this lyrics of lemon tree suits perfectly today and most often unfortunately!


the weather changes and changes the colour of sky
but my life is still the same!
i see people moving in and out of my life
but my life is still the same!
i sing and dance
i weep and sigh
but my life is still the same!


this first rain of the season
reminds me that nothing has changed
no matter how much i try
my life is still the same!


even my poems have not improved!!! i really feel nothing has changed and my life is as same as it was.. :(
i hate frowning so even if my life is still the same lets not cry over it, lets feel better saying that change is not always a good thing :)... wow! i love this smiley... it really makes me smile :)

this is me ;)

as my name suggest i am a free spirit, actually not, i am as confined as anyone dealing with this society and its norms!!!
want to break free every now and then even though i enjoy being a part of it somtimes...

hi! to all who is reading this (even if its just me!)
am a little excited for this is my first time blogging!
though there is nothing exciting about my life so i dont know what to talk about, but yes lets just randomly start with what am doing now a days....
after so much of toil am finally shortlisted for my postgraduation... so am basically preparing for the interview round. apart from that i am also preparing for some other exams as well but then there is a little exciting thing that am planning to take french lesson...

am more excited about meeting new people than the course. its weird that i am an introvert, a pure introvert when it comes to being with new people and in new places!
but when it comes to my close friends and especially my sister am a chatter box!!!
there i go always a mediocre!!!!
and i hate it.. honestly.. am not bad in studies but am not ver good either!
am not a shopaholic but i cant resist trendy clothes no matter how broke i am!
am not a party animal but i dont mind tapping my foot to music with friends!
am not a good writer but i still like writing!
i dont find anything am best at... i mean i am always like a jack of all trades and master of none!! which certainly i don't like. this is the reason why i think am still clueless about my career!!!
i believe that every one of us, every person on this earth has some talents and we are all sent here with some purpose! we all have some purpose in life and i dont know what's mine!

so here i am in search of my purpose in life...

by now you must have noticed how restless my mind is .... due to this i often deviate from my topic.. it happens so that i even forget what the topic of discourse exactly was!

am a little confused and little focused!

always practical but love dreaming!

i like music but am not particular about genres!

i like dancing but i cant dance!

i want to learn swimming but i hate stepping in water!

i like sports but i dont play!

i love the very idea of romance but i dont believe in it!

i have faith in god which deters everytime i fail!

i cant hurt people but i retaliate!

the list goes on.... but lets stop here cause there are things that i feel am still learning bout myself!